Things need to change from time to time, but that doesn't mean that we embrace or welcome the change that is imminent--oftentimes just the opposite. In our homes things can stay the same for a LONG time, long past the point where it had stopped serving us well, or nourishing our souls with beauty.
My lovely friend, Marilee, who lives in Florida, wrote a piece about this that I wanted to share with you this week. Hope you enjoy!
What I Learned From A Lemon Tree
A few months ago I cut down our lemon tree. It was a big event. I had been waffling about removing the tree for nearly 18 months. It was obviously not healthy, but I held out hope for a return to its fruitful glory.
I watered. I fertilized. I tended. And, I ignored reality.
It wasn't until last week when I was visiting with family - some of whom are citrus experts - that I accepted our tree's fate. I described our tree's current condition and simultaneously (and in stereo) my two cousins said "Citrus Greening."
The term Citrus Greening is synonymous with "no way to save your tree." Yet, to be absolutely certain there was no hope - because two expert opinions weren't quite enough, I Googled it; Google confirmed it, of course. Citrus Greening is bad news.
As I began removing the lemon tree, I could see how the removal process and my journey to get there was a metaphor:
Sometimes, the things in life that aren't working can be hard to accept, and it requires an objective perspective to fully accept that it's not working. As soon as my cousins confirmed what I already knew, I was able to take action.
And so I began the task of removing one limb and branch at a time. And while taking action sounds easy now, it was fraught with a kaleidoscope of emotions and mixed feelings that momentarily distracted me. The inhalation of the beautiful, sweet, lemon scent broke my heart and caused me to question what I was doing. My tree smelled so good! Then, just as quickly, a thorn pierced my skin through my glove, and snapped me back to the present moment.